Thursday, September 29, 2011

Today!

Today was busy and filled with running around, but I am finally home! I finally went to the doctor and got a pap and talked with him about TTC. I told him about how we started last year in Nov. and have been trying since February since Chris got back, I told him about how my periods sometimes did not show up, I told him everything! At first I didn't think he would really worry about me because I have one child already and I barely turned 21, but boy was I wrong! I am in love! After my pap, we talked in his office and he was extremely helpful and knowledgeable and drew everything out for me. He explained and showed me why it was not good that my period had disappeared  for 4 months and let me know that each time I did not have a period that I could have developed cysts on my ovaries. He said that if they get too bad, they sometimes twist and could make a blockage to my fallopian tubes. He scheduled an ultrasound to rule this out. My pap came out good and he said that everything from that prospective looked great.He told me that he was definitely not worried about me in the aspect that I could not get pregnant because I already had Wes and he was sure he could help me conceive again.

Then came the part that totally surprised me. He said he was prescribing me 4 medicines. The first would be what I am already taking which are prenatal vitamins, the second would be a medicine to stabilize my metabolism (Metformin) , another to take if my period did not show up (progesterone), which I would only then take BEFORE taking a pregnancy test because it would hurt the baby if I took it and I was pregnant, the last which totally took me off guard when I read it, clomid! I was really surprised that he would prescribe me that, but I am not complaining. He was mad that he didn't see me before my period started, but he's glad that I can take it this month, if I am not pregnant. He told me that he was no doubts that I will be pregnant in 3 months. I am so excited! To me it doesn't matter how I get pregnant, I just want to have another baby. Something that a girl posted on my secondary infertility page is this and I love it: "Secondary infertility is such a difficult and conflicting diagnosis. Those who can't have children look down at you for not being happy with what you have, those who have children don't understand it because you already have one so you should be able to have another. You feel left out, alone, and often very guilty." This is soooooooo true!!! I feel guilty wanting to be pregnant and have another baby when others can't, but I can't help the want to grow another human being inside of me! I know some people will be like well she has one kid, she should be happy because I can't even have one. Well no, I can't be happy with just my son! I love my son to the moon and back, but when you want something so bad, you can't help it. I want another baby and no one can tell me that is wrong. Anyway, I am so happy this doctor looked at me as a person and truly has a plan to help me get pregnant! God is good!

4 comments:

  1. First off good luck! I know the feeling of having one and wanting another. It hit harder with my miscarriages because i had had shiana with no problems and did not understand at the time why i could not carry another baby. Thankfully with keylan god placed a wonderful doctor that actually cared in our lives and hot me through the pregnancy and took very good care of me afterward. Hope to be reading soon about a new bundle of joy that is baking =)

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  2. thank you! We also had no problems getting pregnant with Wes so I was a little confused and glad he is helping me! =)

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  3. I found your blog from a blog search engine, searching for secondary infertility blogs. There isn't many that I can find.

    We conceived our son easily, and when he was 18mths old, we decided to try for #2. That was back in April 2009. Our son is now 4. Its been really testing, tiring, painful and a slow journey. I did suffer a mc in July 2010, but no 2 pink lines on a stick yet. We are unexplained infertile, and have done 5 rounds of clomid with no luck there either.

    I truly wish you all the best. Secondary infertility is not about greed, its about the need to provide your child with a sibling, so they will have a family even when we are gone.

    Baby dust to you..
    Tee
    infertilitee-upthedate.blogspot.com

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  4. I feel like the best thing I can do for my son is provide him a sibling! I love my little sister and I want my son to have that also. I am sorry for your loss! Baby dust to you also! =)

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