Looking Ahead

We have been so lazy the last couple of days! We celebrated Thanksgiving at my aunt's house and it was great! The only thing I wish was that I would have bought a turkey so we could have plenty of leftovers! I was feeling lazy so I never bought one and my mouth is just watering for some turkey! ahh!

Chris is still recovering from surgery and it sucks! Not for him but for me. I don't have a problem catering to him it just sucks having no help and it's not his fault. He cannot put any pressure on his foot because if he messes it up they will have to go in and fix it again; if they can't, they will have to amputate the toe.  I think it's more work now than when he was deployed. I have to make sure he has everything he needs, do everything with Wes, the dog, the cats, and the house. Tomorrow I start my English class back so I will be adding that in the mix. I just cannot wait until he is better!

Earlier this week, I had inquired about some jobs on Craigslist for Daycare workers. I got an email and sent the director my resume. This job would be amazing to get because Wes would be able to get some kid interaction everyday and I wouldn't feel like I was ditching him because I would be in the same place. I also realized that if I am serious about my future career as an educator I need to get a job that is partially linked with what I wanna do after I graduate. I have only have one job:chick-fil-a at 15 for 2 1/2 years and then I moved with Chris to Texas. We decided to have a baby and I wasn't going to work and go to school. I would never see Wes, so I have never had another job. I do not regret the time that I have stayed home with Wes! I have thoroughly enjoyed myself. Looking at my resume, I know that if I want a job as a teacher, I will need to get some "working" experience instead of just "volunteer" experience. My ultimate goal before graduating would be to be a daycare teacher to 3 or 4 year olds. I have my teacher aide career diploma, but ultimately I need my bachelor's to work as a kindergarten teacher, which is what I want to do. Snagging this job would allow me to have an advantage over girls in Alabama who work as daycare teachers, but only have their HS diploma. There are so many openings there that I am just so excited!! Anyway, crossing my fingers to get a call back.

Today just plain sucks!

Today I am feeling hopeless, mentally exhausted, and sad=( I realized  today, one year ago, Chris was on R&R and we started trying for another baby. Well as you all know, I still don't have a second child and it sucks. I keep thinking back and thinking that I waited to long, we should have stuck with our original plan and TTC when Wes turned one even though Chris was about to leave for deployment. Maybe if we had, I would have two babies running around. I haven't started my period, but I just feel like I will. I don't have symptoms of my period, but after so long I just think all my "symptoms" are in my head. Chris isn't worried and says it will happen when it happens, but will it? What is so wrong with me that I can't get pregnant like I did with Wes. I have so many questions especially for God. Ughhh! I want my BFP, but how long will I have to wait? My fertility doctor said he was hopeful that I would be pregnant within 3 months and I went to him in October. If this isn't my month then I only have 1 more until the 3 months he gave me. Today just plain sucks!

This Past Week!

So, I have sooo much to update on! Wes had his 3 year check up on Monday and he is perfect! He weights 38 1/2 lbs and that lands him in the 95th percentile for weight. He is 39 1/2 in tall, which lands him in the 75th percentile for the rest of the kids his age.

On Wednesday, Chris was playing kickball for PT. When he was running for a base, his foot went the wrong way and he broke 3 toes in 4 places. He has been in extreme pain and he can't really do anything useful, which stinks lol. I hope he starts to feel better soon.

Friday was Veteran's Day so we went to Applebee's because Chris ate free there. It was yummy as usual! I love Applebee's! Then after that we were supposed to take Wes to the movies, but Chris's foot was killing him so we decided to go another day. That night we just watched movies and had family time.

Today, we went to Victoria's Fajita Birthday Dinner at my Aunt Lori's. Delicious!!! I saw all my little cousins! Victoria and Alyssa are my 2 oldest baby cousins and they are getting so big! I remember them being little babies and we always had to watch Alyssa because she was always beating Victoria up! It was fun to catch up with everybody. Chris had to miss it because he had Staff Duty, but we still had a blast. Wes was shy at first, but then he warmed up and quickly played with all the little kids. Although I miss Alabama dearly I love having my family around, just missing my girls!!

Speaking of my girls, I cannot wait until they are here!! A little over a month and I get to see them! I cannot wait!! It will have been 4 monthss! Way to long! My baby sis graduates this year, so Wes and I will be going to Alabama in May! Such a blessed life that God has given me!

My Baby Boy, who isn't such a baby, turns 3!

So, O-M-G! November 6th is here!! This is the day 3 years ago that my life changed forever in every way! Now, I am not going into a long speech about my amazing son and blog about my love for him because I do it on a regular basis, but if your that interested just read my birth story haha.

Anyway, I know everyone hears this all the time, but they grow SOOOOOOOOOOOOO fast! It's not a lie! They really do! Wes is such an amazing little dude! Not many people know just how intelligent and how lively he is when he warms up to you. Wes inherited my shyness, so he isn't himself around you until he knows you and is comfortable with you. So, if he has ever been outgoing around you consider yourself lucky haha.

I love him so much and he melts my heart when he tells me "I love you princess" or "I love you crazy girl" or my favorite "I love you beautiful." He is the sweetest boy!

I know I have only been a mommy for 3 years, but I feel like I have learned a whole bunch and I probably won't stop learning. I don't stress about milestones and what he should be doing when and what age and blah blah blah. I spent way to much time hoping he crawls at this age, walks at this age, that when he was doing these things, I wondered to myself why the hell I was wishing for him to grow up. Savor every minute of it! Even the stay up all nights crying over nothing, throwing a silly tantrum because he wanted to press the play button. I roll my eyes when my son does this lol, but I savor it. One day my house will be way to quiet because he will be all grown up and out of the house. I know that one day I will wish my house was noisy again.

Any girl who thinks she is snagging up my little guy better love and appreciate him as much as I do, but I doubt that because no one can love him more than me! hehe, I probably sound like some future crazy mother-in-law!  I promised Wes I wouldn't as long as he brings home a nice girl. lmao.

Anyway, I am gonna enjoy the day with my little man and my husband! Yep, my freaking husband scared the freaking bujesus outta me coming through the door at like 12am! When I saw the green Army bags, I thought a hobo had broken it lmao! Wes loved the surprise and the best thing is he isn't missing his actual birthday!!! Yayyyy!!!!!!!! Wes wanted to see the 'Puss in Boots' movie so we may eat out, movie, and cake and ice cream! I can't wait till his party! I am just so happy Chris gets to be here(:

oopsiess! Remember how I said this wasn't going to be a sappy 'I love my son' blog? Well, too bad haters! He turns 3 today, so suck it!

Clomid Virgin

I am finally off provera (meds used to start a period, when it doesn't come naturally; at least that what it is doing for me)! Yay! I am so happy because it made me so sick! Especially coupled with my food posing mixed with Halloween; I had to get my ass in gear and make sure Wes had a fabulous time! If I didn't have Wes I would have been in bed with my netflix feeling sorry for myself lol.

Tomorrow will be day 5 of my cycle so I will start taking my clomid! I am excited and nervous because I don't know how my body will react. I used to think that women who took fertility meds where exaggerating the effects; however, when I started them I sooo understood what they were talking about. It will definitely be worth it, no doubt.