Thursday, September 29, 2011

Today!

Today was busy and filled with running around, but I am finally home! I finally went to the doctor and got a pap and talked with him about TTC. I told him about how we started last year in Nov. and have been trying since February since Chris got back, I told him about how my periods sometimes did not show up, I told him everything! At first I didn't think he would really worry about me because I have one child already and I barely turned 21, but boy was I wrong! I am in love! After my pap, we talked in his office and he was extremely helpful and knowledgeable and drew everything out for me. He explained and showed me why it was not good that my period had disappeared  for 4 months and let me know that each time I did not have a period that I could have developed cysts on my ovaries. He said that if they get too bad, they sometimes twist and could make a blockage to my fallopian tubes. He scheduled an ultrasound to rule this out. My pap came out good and he said that everything from that prospective looked great.He told me that he was definitely not worried about me in the aspect that I could not get pregnant because I already had Wes and he was sure he could help me conceive again.

Then came the part that totally surprised me. He said he was prescribing me 4 medicines. The first would be what I am already taking which are prenatal vitamins, the second would be a medicine to stabilize my metabolism (Metformin) , another to take if my period did not show up (progesterone), which I would only then take BEFORE taking a pregnancy test because it would hurt the baby if I took it and I was pregnant, the last which totally took me off guard when I read it, clomid! I was really surprised that he would prescribe me that, but I am not complaining. He was mad that he didn't see me before my period started, but he's glad that I can take it this month, if I am not pregnant. He told me that he was no doubts that I will be pregnant in 3 months. I am so excited! To me it doesn't matter how I get pregnant, I just want to have another baby. Something that a girl posted on my secondary infertility page is this and I love it: "Secondary infertility is such a difficult and conflicting diagnosis. Those who can't have children look down at you for not being happy with what you have, those who have children don't understand it because you already have one so you should be able to have another. You feel left out, alone, and often very guilty." This is soooooooo true!!! I feel guilty wanting to be pregnant and have another baby when others can't, but I can't help the want to grow another human being inside of me! I know some people will be like well she has one kid, she should be happy because I can't even have one. Well no, I can't be happy with just my son! I love my son to the moon and back, but when you want something so bad, you can't help it. I want another baby and no one can tell me that is wrong. Anyway, I am so happy this doctor looked at me as a person and truly has a plan to help me get pregnant! God is good!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

The Past few days. . .

I am extremely proud to say that Wes is 100% potty trained; finally at 2 years && 10 months!!! He is wearing his "big-boy" underwear along with his pants, even around the house. That may sound weird, but as I have said in my previous blogs, the 3 day potty training system says that it would take 3 months for the child to be able to wear pants at home and underwear under his pants when out. I am so proud to say Wes is able to be in his pants and underwear when at home and out & about and still let me know when he has to potty. I have not changed a diaper in 5 days!! Ah-mazing! I still put a diaper on him at night, but he has yet to wet one(: So, this led me to store all his diapers and liners away; except for 7 for nighttime use. If he continues to not wet the bed at night for another 2 to 3 months, I'll eliminate the diapers all together(: I am even more ready for another precious baby because now we would have only 1 in diapers. I am praying it happens very soon!

My 21st birthday was Sunday and yet I don't feel 21 lol. We are celebrating this weekend, so maybe after this weekend I'll feel like I can legally drink haha.

I have my doc appt on Thursday to check me out and see if I am okay to have another baby; I am so excited and a little nervous. I hope everything checks out. I am praying about it and I trust everything will be fine.

Now, I am just making a mushroom pasta, yummy! Waiting for the hubby to get home! 

That's all my ramblings for today(:

Friday, September 23, 2011

Adventures in Potty Training:III

So, as I stated last night, Wes went to bed with big boy undies! No cloth diaper! He did climb out of bed really quick before bed and I was wondering why. He was headed to the potty, but didn't make it. At least he tried to get to the potty though. I am extremely proud to say that he DID NOT wet the bed during the night!! I cut off his liquids around 8:30pm and no bed wetting! I was totally surprised especially since it was his first night working on  potty training.

When he woke up this morning, I took him straight to the potty and he was a little irritated because there I am pulling off his pants early morning, so he did a little tinkle in his undies. Like the 3 day system says, I just told him in a disappointed voice that PeePee goes in the potty. After that accident, he would just randomly run to the potty and use it, we celebrated often and he got an M& each time.

Later we were in the kitchen cooking and I had him on the counter and he told me that he had to PeePee, but when I went to put him down he told me no. I sat him back on the counter and a minute later he had trickled on the counter! I was so irritated, but it was my fault because he did tell me. I just explained again that peepee goes in the potty.

He did great all today besides his 2 accidents and one accident he had on Chris! LMAO! I told Chris that he shouldn't tickle him because he is due for a potty break, but of course Chris did not listen. Wes peed on him a little and we all laughed! Wes finished on the potty, but it was absolutely hilarious!

Now, he is in bed with no diaper again and we will see how the night goes! I do have to say that I think he will have an accident only because he fell asleep before his bedtime and he did not have time to empty his bladder. I am not worried either way, he has a pee pad underneath so if he does it's not the end of the world. I am so proud of my baby boy!!

Update:

Wes work up at around 9pm and he had NOT wet the bed and used it when he woke up. I knew he probably would wake-up because he can't go to bed that early. I am so proud he held his pee and used the potty when he woke up! YES!!

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Adventures in Potty Training: II

Today was the 1st day that I actually intensely worked on potty training with Wes, since he was 20 months old. It went great! I did not expect it to be so, but he has done a fantastic job today!

We went swimming today, so after I changed his diaper from last night, I put his big boy underwear on and we headed to the pool.

We came back and I researched the 3-day potty training system. I am going to religiously stick to it. As its states, Wes has only been wearing a shirt and no pants since and it has worked wonderfully. Last time I tried this he just peed on the floor, but I have moved his potty in the living room and he's gone on it all day. I have not used one cloth diaper today. I am thrilled!! We watched the free potty training video that I received in the mail, so each time he goes in the potty we celebrate by doing the potty dance! I cannot tell you how excited I am!! Tonight, I will even put his big boy underwear on for bed because I am cutting off his fluids, so he should use the bathroom and not have to go till the morning. =)

I'll let you know how it turns out tomorrow!

Goal is to have him potty trained in 2 months by his 3rd birthday!!

Shots, Shots, Shots

When Wes was a baby, I didn't think twice about NOT getting his shots, or even only getting some of his shots. Some will think that I was ONLY 18 and what did I know about stuff like that. Well, I knew that my mother always got me the shots that were appropriate for my age; with Wes having my pediatrician when he was born, I did not think twice about second guessing the doctor I most respected and trusted.

Fast-forward to now: I am reading all this information of shots linked to SIDS, shots linked to autism, and shots linked to delayed learning etc. I am horrified and to say the least extremely thankful that Wes did not have any of these reactions. I am looking at the one vaccine that some parents are saying that is linked to SIDS, DTap- Diphtheria Tetanus and Pertussis Vaccines. I am looking at Wes's shot record and he has had 4 of these vaccines so far, and is supposed to have 2 more, as there are 2 blanks left still to be filled out. After reading these reports, numerous blogs, and articles, I am extremely skeptical of continuing with vaccines for him, especially DTap. He has his 3 year old shots due on Nov. 6th and I cannot tell you that I am gonna be all for it. I am still going to do research and see what I will do with him and my future children. I can say that I am less concerned because both my husband and I have had all our vacs and never had a reaction to any, nor are we allergic to anything. I could not forgive myself if my child were to be affected by a routine shot, nor would I be able to forgive myself if he were to be affected by NOT getting a certain vaccine. Although, Wes has had every vaccine that he will have another dose of, I will continue to do research before he is due in about 2 months. I will pray about the decision and asked to be shown guidance. 

Monday, September 19, 2011

Adventures in Potty Training

WARNING: THIS IS "SUCH" A MOMMY BLOG, SO READ AT YOUR OWN RISK=)

So, on this momentous day, potty training of epic proportions happened. Wes, for the very first time ever, pooped in the potty willingly (he has peed many times) at 2 years && 10 months. I was watching "Border Wars" on Netflix and I thought I heard Wes playing with his cloth diaper wipe sprayer, so I got up and turned the corner and there he was with red in his eyes. I obviously knew what he was doing/about to do, so I asked him if he needed to potty and he said yes (wow! cause he always fights me) that he had to poo poo and it hurt. I led him to the potty and we sat there for a little bit then sploosh! The biggest turd probably ever made by a toddler goes landing in the potty! I am so proud! We sang our potty song and he got a sticker! He loves it and I know this is a great step towards using the potty!!!!

Wes at 2 years && 10 months using the potty 
for poo poo for the first time(=

I'll wait my turn until it's our turn to dance

So, Aunt Flow paid me a visit yesterday. I was bummed at first, but then I realized that hey, at least my period is actually making an appearance. The past few months Aunt Flow hasn't even bothered to make a visit every month. So first, I should look at that as a complete blessing and I am. For those that are like, what? She's sad her period showed up? I was sad because we have made the decision to add to our family.

The plan was (the plan was determined when Wes was an infant) to start trying for a baby when Wes turned 18 months. Well, of course plans change and in our case the Army changed up our plans. Chris was not supposed to deploy until 2011 because the unit that he was assigned to had just gotten back from a 15 month deployment, so I was not worried at all. At that time, it was middle of March 2009 and Wes was not even a year old yet. A few months later, I think around October 2009, Chris came home with some news. He was going to be deployed with another unit because they needed more numbers and he hadn't been deployed yet. His unit had just gotten back, so obviously he would be the first choice to be picked. I was devastated to say the least. You hear "deployment" and your heart just stops beating for a second. I was scared especially since there was word he would be sent to Afghan. I knew that wasn't a good place, so I was definitely worried.

My second thought in all of this was how were we going to go about adding to our family? I had already practically gone through a pregnancy, labor, and the first 6 months without my husband (thanks to the Army once again lol), so repeating that adventure was not really on my list of things to do. Wes was 11 months when we decided to hold off for babies until he came back. I was sad, but I knew that it was the best thing.

Fast-forward to November 2010, Chris was home on R&R. We planned to try then because he would not miss much of my pregnancy if I were to get pregnant then. He was coming back in a couple months for good and nothing monumental would have happened with a pregnancy yet. I unfortunately did not ovulate on R&R & I did not conceive.

Fast-forward to February 2011, a few days before Chris came home I ovulated and when he finally did come home, I started my period a few days later. Total bummer, but I wasn't worried because now he would actually be home and we could start seriously trying.

March 2011, came and went, so did Aunt Flow. I think by the time March came I was a little worried and wondering why it was not happening.

Then, April comes with NO period, at first I thought I was pregnant, but many tests confirmed that to be a BFN! May also came with no period and finally June, also with no period! I was extremely peeved and also worried about what was going on with my body. I did not see a doctor, but started working out with my sister while I was in Alabama. A few weeks later after I started working-out, my period finally comes back! I was so SO so excited to see Aunt Flow. Finally, I could start trying and possibly get pregnant soon. My only problem was I would be stuck in Alabama until late August with no sperm lol. Chris was back in Texas.

Finally, September came and I was so excited because finally things were back on track. Well, THE week I was fertile & ovulating, I get a frickin' yeast infection! Just my damn luck! We had sex once that week towards the end of my meds, but I was pretty sure nothing was gonna happen.

That brings us to today! I am officially counting this month as the first month of trying because we are together and will be able to try and my periods are now back on track. Very thankful for that! This will be the last time we will be able to try because Chris will have training next month out of state and he will be missing my ovulation, so if I am not pregnant next month, we will have November and December, then January he is gone again with more training (yay, Army!).

I am definitely NOT worried, the past 2 weeks I feel like I am closer to God with going to mass and actually soaking up what the priest has to say. I told God that I trust in him and believe that when he thinks I am ready to be blessed with another little miracle that he will send them our way. I used to be envious and want to be pregnant so bad that I did not wanna hear people complain about it and hear their crap. Now, I feel like I can be happy for them and still want a baby myself. I know when they complain about morning sickness, backaches, etc, that I will still be thinking that I would give anything to be feeling that way; with a life growing inside of me. But, I'll wait my turn, until it's our turn to dance.