First off, on Sunday I took my progesterone to jump-start my period and since today is Wednesday, I am on Day 4 out of 10. Still no period, but last time my period started 4 days after day 10 ended.
I started writing about my fertility problems because right before this I got a facebook message from my neighbor who needed me to watch her children because she had an OB appt. Now, I am not sure if she is pregnant or she just has like a pap or something, but ugh it tugged at my heart. She has 3 kiddos and her youngest is 1! Seriously, why can't I get just one more! Why are there crack whores, druggies, and dead beat mommas getting prego and I can't!! I am totally not saying that she is one, she is totally cool, but god, come on! Send a baby my way before others who have 3!!
As for my job at the daycare, it surprisingly doesn't bother me about being infertile. I love seeing the babies and toddlers playing in their rooms not to far from mine. I think God brought me to this job though because my afterschoolers TOTALLY curb my want for another baby thinking about what that baby grows up to be. Now, don't get be wrong I want a baby sooo very bad, but the older kids are great especially when they act up, because for a few seconds I don't focus on wanting and not being able to get pregnant. I hate stuff like I just mentioned because then I am all about wanting to be pregnant! It sucks and no one can make you feel better about it unless that someone has magical powers and bam, make you pregnant.
My class was so much better today! I hate being mean, but I guess that is what it took. I tried to be nice and the talking back and sarcasm just kept coming, so today I went in with an attitude. One of my "coloful" students flat out lied to my face 2x and so she wrote the rule she broke 5x. I think by the end of the week, I am going to have a whole drawer full of her rule writing. Today was a much better day than yesterday!
Well, I don't really feel like writing anymore because my house is a freaking mess and I need to clean it!
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