Bee-yatchiness

So, I have so much to say and vent about! First off, my last blog I said that I was testing to see if I am pregnant because I was late. Unfortunately, no baby "E" in the oven=( I was sad, I'm not going to lie, but I keep telling myself when Chris comes back from this training mission I start Clomid and things will look up!

Anyway, when my period doesn't come and I am not pregnant, I was prescribed Medroxy Progesterone, which jump starts my period. Today is day 2 of 10 of my Progesterone pills and I have not started my period. I am really hoping it comes soon!!

I feel like these pills are bringing my mood down. The past two days I have been on them, I have just felt so "blahhh". I really hope these next few days that I am on them fly by because I hate the way I feel. I have also felt myself become a little bitter with these pills and I am trying to nip it in the bud. I'm like telling myself, Jena, seriously calm down, your time will come and it will be soon! I think the remaining 8 days, I am going to be a super bitch! I have no sympathy for people who get knocked up and are mad about it or can't handle their kids and pawn them off on people or who just abuse their kids. I don't sympathize with you. If this sounds bitter, it's my pills talking!

I have a baby shower coming up for someone that I am in no way close too. I really don't feel like it is the best thing for me to do. If it were one of my friends, I would be there in a second! I also would be super happy for them, but not for this person. Nope! I am not going to put myself through that and pretend I am happy for someone when I am most definitely not!

So, to keep my mind off this baby business, I have just been focusing on Wes! I love that little boy! He brightens up my days!! Chris is off to training for 3 weeks and it will just be me and my baby boy! I know we will have fun! Anyway, I just needed to get my feelings out and I feel a little better, but I cannot wait to get off this medicine I HATE it!!!