Just Some Rambleingsss

The past month I have been soaking up the good 'ol southern  life in Alabaster. I love it here. It's my where a part of heart will always be, it's home!

I am enjoying being with my family and letting them in on a part of Wes growing up. Let's face it, when you have kids it's all about them(: I also FINALLY started my period after 68 freaking days! I am soooo happy! I was afraid something was wrong with me.I have also been going to the gym religiously (this starts my 3rd week) and I think maybe that is what jump started my period. Whatever it was I am just happy it worked.

Also, I am so proud to say that I finally got my ass in gear and its totally paying off! This marks my 3rd week and I couldn't be happier. I feel amazing. I want to be in the best possible shape especially if we want to have another little one.

Anyway, I am pretty much done trying with one friend. We have been close for a while, but she thinks she can just ignore my texts and expect me to answer hers and everything still be fucking peachy. Well it's not and I am extremely irritated and I don't have time for it.



Last night I had one of those emotional "mommy moments." I was watching Wes being his same ol' little cute self and I wanted to cry! He is growing way to fast, no really I am not just being cliche. He will now refuse my kisses and speaks even better. He told me "Don't kiss me mommy, ew." He sometimes refuses to give me hugs and I know it's just him being stubborn, but it breaks my heart especially when I am having a moment. I watch him and am just so amazed how smart he is and just the little person he has become. He is so sweet, tender, shy, loving, but he also has his moments and I just love it all. It is so funny to hear some one the stuff that comes out of his mouth. I am like where did you learn that. I am so proud of him! One thing he tells me that absolutely melts my heart "I love you so much mommy!" Aww I want to cry! He is 2 years & 8 months old. I want to zap him back to 6 months. I want my baby to be a baby again. I do have my moments where I wanna pull my hair out, but all those moments I'd never trade for anything. My baby boy is alive, healthy, and I couldn't be more blessed. I thank god he sent me Wes. Wes will always be my greatest achievement. When I leave this world, at least I know I will leaving a little boy who I have raised in God's light. I pray that Wes will be close to me when he is older and that he never forgets how much I have done for him. I know a women who's kids are so mean to her and don't see her anymore. I pray that will never be me. It would break my heart. I love you Wes Allen and everything I do in life is for you(: You will always be my baby.