So, today I started my classes back for school! I am going for my Bachelor's in Elementary Education. I am attending online because I tried the going-to-school-on-campus thing, but that obviously did not work out. I think I just don't want to leave Wes because I HAD to leave him when I was in high school, and now I don't really have too.
I gave birth to Wes my first semester of my senior year in high school. Yes, he was planned, but my plans did not go the way I wanted them too, so thus he was born then. If my plans did go the way I had planned, I would have home schooled while I lived in Texas with Chris and he would have been there for Wes's birth.
Chris joined the Army my Junior year of high school. I did NOT want him to have anything to do with the military! I thought everyone who joined the military died (yes, I know an ignorant thought, but hey, I was young & ignorant!). He started going to the recruiters station in Hoover and getting more information about the Army. I knew deep down that it was probably the best thing for him because he was totally not made for the classroom. He loved sports in high school and I knew he missed it. So finally in September, Army life became real, he left the day after my birthday (Septmeber 26th, 2007) for Montgomery to be sworn into the U.S. Army. After he left Montgomery, he would be headed to Ft. Jackson, SC for Basic Training. My mother, Chris's mother, myself, and Chris headed to the Hoover recruiting staion to say goodbye. We stopped by the Mexican restaurant right beside the recruiting staion to have lunch before Chris left to montgomery. Ever Since, We always seem to stop by that same restaurant to have a meal anytime Chris leaves anywhere else.
Well, Chris left and then headed for basic. Meanwhile I was stuck in Alabaster busy with school, Volleyball, and work. It was quite different not having Chris around. We had been with eachother almost every day since we had been together (1/8/06). I missed him alot, but with everything going on in my life I did not have time to focus on him being gone. Finally came Decemeber! Chris was set to graduate on December 8th, 2007, but the day before was family day. I would have a whole day with Chris after three months! I was so excited!
We (Chris's parents, 2 sisters, and brother) left Alabama and headed for South Carolina on December 6th, 2007. We got there later that night. The next morning we all got up early and headed for post. I will NEVER forget how cold it was that day! I had 2 jackets on, yet I was still freezing. I think we waited at least an hour before the activities for family day started. The soldiers came out from the woods and did a skit. There were some words spoken, but I was not listening at all; just looking for MY soldier. Then he said the words that everyone wanted to hear "Go find your soldier!" It was crazy there were so many people everywhere I looked around for him and then I heard his mom call my name. I turned around and there he stood. He was so different! He looked good with his uniform on and I just gave him a huge hug. I had missed him so much and finally there he stood right in front of me!
He was allowed to leave with us for the day and we went to the PX, which I was absolutely fascinated with lol. We toured the post and looked around. I remember trying to give him a kiss and him FREAKING out saying he was going to get into so much trouble! I laugh so hard now and remember how scared he was about all those rules!
He graduated the next day and I remember feeling so proud of him. It's a feeling I can't describe, just seeing him in his Class A's made my heart melt. He was acting really strange after he graduated. I remember us going up to the hotel room and his parent's and grandparents (they had joined us) kind of just disappeared. I sat down in one of the side chairs and he started pacing, and then he looked really scared. He got down on one knee (in his Class A's!) and opened the box with a beautiful engagement ring! The only thing that was missing was the words coming out of his mouth saying "Will you marry me?" Yeah, he forgot to ask! So he asked me, "So, will you?" I told him he hadn't asked me anything. Of course after he finally asked me I gave him a huge kiss and hug and said "YES!"
Chris had to stay back and wait for Christmas exodus and I went back to school with a RING! Of course I kept that on the down low since I was only a JUNIOR!
While Chris was back on Christmas exodus he bought me a beautiful red mustang and we thought why wait? Let's get married now! So, we did! On December 28th, 2007 we were married; A 19 year old and a 17 year old. I look back now and think we were CRAZY, but I would not change a thing! So I returned to school and Chris returned to to army life at Redstone Arsenal, married.
Since Chris was only in Huntsville (a 3 hour drive), I would go up and see him on the weekends. We talked and planned. We decided we wanted to start a family. He had a stable job and when he got stationed somewhere, I would just stay home with our baby and home school. Well I got pregnant a month after we were married and right as others found out I was married, they also found out I was pregnant. So, just to put that out there, I GOT MARRIED BEFORE I WAS PREGNANT WITH OUR PLANNED LITTLE BLESSING! OK, I feel better.
Chris was stationed at Ft. Bliss, TX for the rest of his AIT. He got to Bliss in February and I joined him in March. We got an apartment and I started school in SISD. Money was tight and scarce, but I was so happy to finally be with my husband. In Alabama I had already passed all my required tests to graduate, but since I had moved to Texas I would have to take them all over again. Since money was tight and I would not be graduating if I had stayed there we decided that we would move me back to Alabama. The day I left was a quiet one. I in no way shape or form wanted to leave my husband. He would be missing everything about my pregnancy and most important our son's birth. We both knew it was for the best, but that did not make me feel any better.
November came and our little boy was born. It was the best day of my life and it would have been better if Chris had not missed it. I am so thankful my mom was there for me through it all though. I went back to school in December and it was the hardest thing I have ever done, to leave my son. He stayed with a good friend of the family, but I still hated to leave him. I missed a lot of school because I did not want to leave him and in fact I was out the whole month of February because I hated the thought of leaving him at all.
My sophomore English teacher spoke with me and inspired me to finally get back in school. I only had a few months left then I could be with Wes all I wanted. Well, I graduated thanks to a lot of support from my mom and sister. I was so proud of myself.
So after that long explanation, I just cringe at the thought of leaving Wes on a regular basis, even to go to school. I tried to leave him in January 2010 to attend school at EPCC, well my poor baby was not immune to all the daycare diseases and he ended up with a double ear infection which caused one of his eardrums to burst. He is fine now, but I think it's a sign I shouldn't leave him. They are only little once and I don't wanna miss a thing. So, Ill just stick with my online courses. I am doing this because I want to inspire my son to achieve as much as he can, no excuses. So when he tells me "Mom it's too hard." or anything else I can say I did it by myself with a toddler, while balancing a household. I am excited to get started back to provide a better future for my son and to provide all that he needs. I know when he is older he will look back and be proud. That's all that really matters to me. I see who I want to be in my son's eyes.
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